Deep at Sea.

"I am deep at sea.
I made myself break free
Of the anchor keeping me
Safe and sound in sanity,
Safe inside my old routine.

I am far from land.
I have left in my hand
A few grains of sand,
And I try to understand
The world in all its expanse.

Alone again, I hope to find
A greater kindness, peace of mind,
A faith, a joy in my core.
I leave my love on familiar shores.

I am deep at sea.
The waves roll over me.
Tossed among eternity,
I am as much as everything.
I am good for nothing.

Alone again, I hope to find
A greater kindness, peace of mind,
A faith, a joy in my core.
I head for some unknown shore.

I am deep at sea.
I am swimming. I am free.
A great love envelops me.
I feel a part of something.
This life, it is for living.

The truth is growing stronger.
My youth is getting farther.

I am deep at sea."

Those lyrics correlate immensely with my place in time. Or will more so in June. It's rather difficult to come to terms with the fact that a vastly important chapter in my life is ending. It's so scary to know that soon enough I will be completely on my own. But oh, the excitement. It's a huge, long, bumpy ass road. I actually have to start this car now. I've spent the last twelve years fixing it up, building it strong enough to endure the obstacles. I just hope I remember where I put the key, and I have enough courage to turn it.

Because, let's face it. I'm terrified. Bloody, terrified.

Swim, swim, swim.
There ain't a lifeguard in sight, it's time to save yourself.


The sun is rising this time.